Push Back

January 13. That's my next show date and THIS time
I'm gonna kick some behind
I mean really! This is the third show, and this year I mean business! I'm tired of just giving a mediocre performance when between Cash and I, we could kick ass! I'm fed up with being third or fourth place when I really have come for the blue!
I'm not going to hope it works out, I know this will be a good one!
I know I'm making a big deal out of an open show but I'm gonna ride this like its finals with a championship on the line because in the end, if you don't then you never ride your best.
At 20 years old, sometimes I feel like I'm a little late to this whole horse show scene. But that really should never stop me from trying to be just as good as the girls who have been on a horse since birth!
This sport has pushed me so far, so hard, and to huge breaking points. Now it's my turn to push right back

Finals week.....

So I gotta be honest, as much as I love being in college I really hate it a lot of the time. Having a job AND having finals AND trying to prep for next show season that starts end of December is really really stressful!
But the good thing is that after this week I have a whole month off to get some more money and take more lessons!
I honestly can't complain too much because it could be so so much worse for me!
On another note, has a one ever used rubber reins? My horse likes to pull his head down after jumps and racing through turns . He's in a corkscrew full cheek bit right now so I would rather not up him if I don't have to. When he does that I have a hard time keeping my fingers closed tightly so I don't know what comes first, my fingers being open or him pulling! I've stopped wearing my gloves so I can really feel when he does it and if my fingers are open. I don't want to stop wearing gloves long term so I wonder if, even without gloves, the rubber reins would be better for me to keep my fingers closed and keep in from pulling them the ought my hands so easily.
Anybody have an opinion on them? All comments and advice is greatly appreciated!!

Back in Business!!

Lordy it's been awhile! Is it to soon to make a New Years resolution? Well too bad.. I promise that the rest of this year and next ill be better about writing in the blog! Pinky promise!!!
Ok, what do I need to fill in on? Hmm, well it's finals week here at home base and it is taking a toll on my barn time :( but I guess if I want to ever get a real job and pay my bills ill need to pay attention here in college! I have a job! Local book store hired me a few weeks ago which means I have money!!
Show season starts... Actually this weekend but I'm skipping out on this one, not quite ready yet but we're getting there!!
I also started the Weight Watchers program about a month ago and I really do like it! But I need to remember that my body is so used to riding that its not going to cut it for activity for the day:/ so I decided to start walking, I've actually graduated to jogging (only a little bit thought) and it feels good! I've lost probably 8lbs which doesn't sound like much but hey it's something!
So like I said, finals week (well two weeks) and its super stressful! I feel just so behind on all of my stuff! Papers in 4 classes and then working in the Photo Lab every other day for 4 hours! Oi...
But I will be better when it's over!
Next semester is my last at community college, I'll have my associates degree then I have to go to a "real school"
I'm not sure how I really feel about this...
On one hand I can go just about where ever I want and make friends and have fun like a college kid should!
But on the other I have Cash who, if I leave for school I have to leave here and probably turn him out to just be a horse for a while. Which is a good idea but, I don't know that I can go everyday with out seeing him or spending time with him:/ taking him to school, isn't really an option unless I plan to stay there. Forever. And that the other thing! I know I love DWF and all the people there, especially CK, I don't know what id do with out her! It makes me sad to even think about having to leave all that behind just so I can get the "college experience" and unless you're partying all the time or living the Greek life then you're kind of doing nothing. I'm not really one for sorority life and I don't think my liver has the endurance (nor do I want it to) to drink every weekend... I want the option to do it all... Have Cash and a job but also get out and meet new people and be kinda on my own.
I don't know what I want! One day I decide that I'm gonna blow this Popsicle stand then the other I'm spouting all the reasons I can't :/
I'm in a bind here and I don't have too much time to figure it out... And I don't know that I would have the option to back out when I do decide...
I don't know what to do!

Somebody help me before I make a wrong decision....